the big v wattys2016
Blog #29:
I spent 3 hours after LaLa and Ant left, sleeping on the top bunk while Amy occupied the bottom. It was only 7:30 when I got woken up from my nap- 2 hours before the game. The other girls were saying Kasey wanted us to go downstairs to the Alpha Den.
Amy and I walked in looking like death and took a seat on the pool table, over looking everyone that chose to sit on the floor. LaLa texted me saying she got an e-mail and that she was looking for us. Right when LaLa walked in and sat beside Amy, Kasey walked in with her roommate, Ashley.
LaLa: "How you late for the house meeting you called?"
Kasey: "I'm sorry do you have somewhere important to be?"
LaLa: "Yes, my man's house, getting ready for the game."
Kasey: "Anyway, you all should be getting an e-mail within the next couple of minutes but.. There's a syphilis outbreak on campus."
Murmurs made their way through the crowd of girls as everyone had something to say about it.
B: "That's why you called this meeting?"
Kasey: "Yes but also.. there may not be a Winter Royale."
Everyone started yelling over each other as she broke the news.
Kasey: "At least not tomorrow. Please stop shouting at me, it's not my decision."
Amy: "Can yall please be quiet so I can talk! I'm not in this sorority but I've watched my best friends and everybody else in here work hard. Don't move the date- they've worked hard for this."
Kasey: "It's not me, it's Ms. Perkins. The outbreak is all everybody talking about, rushing to get to the clinic. She wants The Winter Royale to be all they're talking about. I'll talk to her about it later tonight. In the mean time, symptoms include soars and ulcers in your mouths. If you think you have it, go to the clinic for help. For everyone else, the game is in less than 2 hours and I want to see all of you there."
Everyone left the Alpha Den with an attitude, but I was fine. I mean, yeah, I worked hard. But I have enough on my plate financially, academically and mentally. I wouldn't mind returning everything I bought for the Winter Royale so I could get my money back.
As we walked upstairs I called Nick again, and he picked up at the 3rd ring. Before I could say hi, a young and feminine voice answered with a "Hello?"
She repeated herself twice more, and each time an overwhelming feeling took over. Every time I tried to speak a lump in my throat caught me by surprise. All I knew was that she sounded familiar. Vanessa?
Wouldn't be the first time.
When I heard Nick's voice in the background, I hung up and block-listed him. Was it childish? Yes. This was probably the first time I was jealous for Nick, and it didn't feel good. Now I know how he feels about Ricky. I composed myself and got ready for the game.
After I got out the shower and lotioned myself, I told LaLa and Amy about the phone call. They tried to rationalize.
LaLa: "Maybe it was a friend on campus."
Amy: "Yeah but he hasn't been answering her calls or texts all day."
B: "I'm telling yall, it sounded like Vanessa!"
Amy: "Okay just calm down before you rip your jersey." she said.
She noticed I was trying to put my jersey over my head, but it was stuck around my neck. I huffed and puffed as I finally got it pass my boobs, and ran my hands down my side along my curves as I stared in the mirror.
It was Ricky's number- number 3. I would wear it to his games and I figured if Nick was actually going to show up to his own game, he'd see me in it and get jealous.
LaLa: "B, it was probably nothing. He could of been at the grocery store, library.. Anywhere. And you know you care, because you're wearing Ricky's old jersey to bug him."
B: "I like Nick's attention but I won't compete for it. I don't care who she was because she probably can't compare. I'm just mad she was with him and I wasn't."
Amy: "Well let's go to the game and then turn up after. There's a party on Huntington Road and I want to go."
B: "I think it might be a Netflix and ice-cream type of night, but thanks."
After we got all dolled up, we got in the car and rushed to the game. Every text I got, I hoped it was him- then I remembered he was block. We took LaLa's brand new car which she was too hype about, showing us all it's features the whole ride there.
While waiting in line to buy our tickets, we heard plenty of whispers about the syphilis outbreak. I cringed at the thought of not getting tested since I've been sexually active.
Amy stood beside me as LaLa stood in front of us, trying to ease drop on the group of girls' that were in front of us. They talked about how over 100 people reported to the clinic to get tested.
Amy: "You know what's crazy? What if you think you're in a faithful relationship but one of you turn up with syphilis. I'm getting tested because James clearly wasn't faithful."
LaLa: "And B, Ricky slept with Vanessa then ate you out. Yall better get checked." she whispered.
B: "Shut up."
Amy: "What about you Little Ms. Perfect?"
LaLa: "Oh I don't have to get tested. Ant knows he'd be a dead man walkin if he ever tried it, so I don't stress."
B: "Funny. Buy your ticket." I said pointing ahead of LaLa.
We bought our ticket then went to find our seats. LaLa and I took pictures on Snapchat while Amy texted James, asking him about his sexual partners. I peeped over LaLa's shoulder a couple times to read Amy's texts.
Amy: I know I'm clean, but with these dirty bitches you mess with, now I'm not so sure 😒
James: What you tryin to say? Fuck out my messages.
I looked ahead and tried to make it seem like I wasn't being nosey. I decided to be slick about it.
B: "Amy, you talk to James yet?" I asked, readjusting my hat. She locked her phone before putting it in her PINK fanny pac.
Amy: "Yup."
LaLa: "And?"
Amy: "He ain't shit."
We all laughed before realizing the game was starting. The teams ran out and the crowd went crazy, stomping and clapping to the beat. We were lower in the stadium- almost ground level but a little higher up. Powders in the school colors, yellow and blue, were being thrown in the air along with silly string and confetti from the crowd.
Amy: "I almost forgot Duke was our biggest game of the season!" she tried to yell over the music.
LaLa: "I don't know how you could! That's all Ant ever talks about."
Looking below us at the teams huddled up, I couldn't help but stare at #3 and #24. I was finally starting to feel the effects of this love triangle I put them through and instantly started to feel like I should be on the bench for cuffing season. Maybe it's not a right time to be with either of them.
LaLa: "B, snap out of it!" she yelled. I was so deep in my thoughts, I didn't realize I was becoming such a buzz kill.
B: "Sorry, I was just thinking about something."
LaLa: "Try to enjoy yourself." she said under her breath.
With my head endlessly trying to calculate the pros and cons of both of them, I turned and faced the flag with my right hand to my chest. It was like I was a robot just copying everyone around me, because my head was really in a different place.
I snapped out if it, though, as the girl, Jasmine finished singing the Star Spangled Banner. Everyone clapped and rejoiced as the game was about to start and just like that, I was focused.
It's not me to be stressing over niggas, and I wasn't going to start now. I cheered and nearly lost my voice when I finally decided to go with Amy to find someone who could legally get us beer. That's when I ran into Joseph. He was wearing a blue and yellow jersey, with yellow and blue stripes across his cheeks.
Joseph: "Hey, B." he said, walking away from the concession stand line with 3 bears in each hand.
B: "Hey, how are you? I asked, giving him a hug. He seemed caught off guard by that. I bit my lip and played in my hair at the awkwardness. "This is my best friend, LaLa."
Joseph: "Nice to meet you, LaLa. Joseph. So you dyed your hair purple."
B: "Yeah, the Winter Royale is tomorrow."
LaLa: "I'm gonna go stand in line, excuse me."
Joseph: "Oh yeah, you need sponsors for that don't you? I used to attend those."
B: "I keep forgetting you used to go here. Frat boy?"
Joseph: "What gave it away?"
B: "Your love for beer."
Joseph: "Oh, I get these for free. I pay to help maintain the stadium so.. As many as I want."
B: "Could you do me a favor?"
Joseph: "How many do you want?"
B: "Three."
Joseph: "Here, take these six."
B: "Thank you!" I said hugging him. He subtly smiled as I motioned for LaLa to come over and handed her 3 beers.
Joseph: "What time is the event tomorrow?"
B: "At 7:30."
Joseph: "You excited?"
B: "Very."
Joseph: "I used to attend them when I was your age. You know like.. 8 years ago."
B: "I'd love for you to come out."
LaLa: "Yeah, we could use some nice, cute, sweet young bachelors like you."
Joseph: "Good to know. Maybe."
He walked away in a hurry while LaLa tried to compose herself from busting out laughing. I frowned before playfully punching her.
B: "Why would you do that?!"
LaLa: "He was talking too damn much. Shit, if he likes you, he could've just said that."
B: "It's not even like that. Business relationship."
LaLa: "No cute and wealthy bachelor like that, picks up a drunk girl at a bar for no reason."
I smirked at the thought as we went up the steps. He was definitely cute with a good head on his shoulders- blue eyes and nice bed head. Never had a thing for white boys before, but I have my own complications with love right now. He'd be better off with Amy.
LaLa and Amy found someone to help them get 2 more beers, so all in all they had 4-5 each. I stuck with my 2 because I wanted to be somewhat sober for the next few days.
We left the game and waited outside by the big tree. That moment, standing there and running my fingers along the memories over the years that the tree had collected- old and chiseled. I wondered how many girls had been let down at that same tree the way I did.
The parking lot got emptier and emptier overtime, until finally Ant, Ricky and Nick came walking through the gate doors. LaLa ran into Ant's arms as Amy ran to hug and congratulate Ricky and Nick on their 78-34 win.
I stood there looking salty, waiting for Nick to approach me. Ricky walked up to me and tried to block my view of LaLa and everyone else.
B: "Get out the way." I said smiling.
Ricky: "So you not gonna congratulate me?"
B: "Congratulations." I said, wrapping my arms around his waist.
The smell of one of his favorite colognes: Polo Blue Eau de Toilette, brought me back to old times. Back to months before, when Ricky was at the tree and I passed by, pretending to not hear him call my name. His phone rang, breaking me out of my thoughts. He pulled away and without contest, I let him walk away to answer his phone.
Amy, LaLa and Ant stood closer to the gate, playing around and talking about highlights of the game. And then there was Nick. Nick was on his phone- the infamous phone I blew up all day. I walked over and put my right hand over his screen.
He looked up and licked his lips- any other time I would've melted at the sight, but not this time. We stared each other in the eyes until he got the urge to look at his screen again.
B: "Where you been all day?" I said with a normal tone, not caring if Ricky heard me or not.
Nick: "Careful. Don't want ya lil boyfriend to hear us."
B: "That's not cute. To go disappearing whenever you want. Who the bitch that answered your phone?"
Nick: "Chill."
B: "Answer me."
Nick: "Man I just won our school's biggest rivalry, I don't have time for ya shit."
B: "My shit? I don't have other niggas answering my phone."
Nick: "And I don't have other females I'm in love with. I was visiting my mom. It was my little sister, my niece, Princess' mom. Remember?"
B: "I don't believe you."
Nick: "Here are the pictures." he said, unlocking his phone. He showed me pictures of his mom and sister at the nail salon. "It's her birthday. Had to treat her to some things."
B: "And you sure that's who answered your phone?" I asked, looking behind me. Ricky was still on the phone.
Nick: "You can't even ask me questions about our relationship without making me feel like I'm the side nigga."
B: "Sorry you feel that way."
Nick: "Apology not accepted." he said, dropping his gym bag at his feet.
LaLa: "Who wants to go to Red Lobster?"
B: "Take me home first." I said walking away, toward LaLa's car.
LaLa: "Why?!"
B: "Cramps."
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LaLa drove with Amy and I in her car while the boys followed. LaLa let me out and Amy asked if I was sure I wanted to stay home. I lied and said yes.
As soon as I got in the house, music was blasting and bitches were running wild through the house with their guests. I was pissed, yet I couldn't be mad. Had I not put myself in such a shitty situation, I'd be turnin up, too.
I threw on one of Nick's oversized grey sweaters and some boy-shorts panties. Before I went downstairs, I threw my hair in a bun and checked my phone- I don't know why, because my hotline never bling. I went to the freezer then curled up on the couch with my Rocky Road Ice-Cream, and watched American Horror Story season 3 on Netflix.
I got a call from Ricky 3 hours later around 1:00 A.M. I frowned at his picture popping up on my phone, but pressed paused on Netflix, anyway. I took another bite of my ice cream before rubbing my temples in an attempt to get rid of brain freeze.
B: "Hello?"
Ricky: "Wassup, B."
B: "Hey, how was dinner?"
Ricky: "Good. We at a party right now, but I'm not feeling it. I can't stop thinking about you."
B: "Ricky-"
Ricky: "Hold up, let me finish. I know I did you dirty in the past but holding you tonight made me realize how much I care about you. I love you, B."
B: "I can't deal with this right now."
A long pause turned the conversation awkward.
Ricky: "You just not going to say it back?"
B: "Just because I don't say it doesn't mean I don't feel it. Things are complicated." I said. The door bell rang.
B: "Someone get the door!" I yelled over the music. Fetty Wap's song, 679 was playing. I yelled again. "Open the door!"
The person ringing the bell got more and more impatient and started ringing the doorbell nonstop. Finally I got off my ass and ran to the door.
B: "Ricky, where's LaLa and Amy?"
Ricky: "They in this house party with Ant. On Huntington Road.
B: "Oh yeah I heard about that. Hey listen, I wanna meet tomorrow afternoon before I go to the venue to get ready for the Winter Royale."
Ricky: "That's fine. B?" he asked. I grabbed the doorknob.
B: "What?" I said, unlocking the top lock.
Ricky: "I love you."
I opened the door, and standing there in all black with his hand in his pockets, was Nick. I stopped in my tracks, hung up the phone and stepped outside.
B: "What you need?" I asked, crossing my arms.
Nick: "Couldn't let you go to bed upset. Who were you on the phone with?" he asked calmly.
B: "My mom. Wassup?"
Nick: "Follow me to my car." he said, grabbing me by the hand. I followed him, with no shoes on, freezing.
B: "What is it?"
Nick: "You'll see."
We got to his car and before he went to the driver's seat to pop the trunk, he told me to turn around.
B: "Why?"
Nick: "Just do it. No peeking."
The wind blew threw me, giving me the chills, when I heard the trunk pop. I smiled thinking of what it could be, and was easily convinced it was what I was waiting for all along.
Nick: "Turn around." he said, walking back to the trunk. I turned around shivering to see a nice, cream-colored bodycon dress neatly wrapped in plastic. "You need something that'll hug ya curves the right way." he said, watching me examine the dress.
Smiling from ear to ear I carefully laid the dress back down in the trunk and jumped in Nick's arms. He wrapped his arms around my waist, kissing me harder and more passionately than ever before. This is the us I've been trying to get back to.
B: "Thank you baby, I love it. I like the detailing at the top and-"
Nick: "Where your boobs supposed to be at?"
B: "Yes." I said laughing. He put me down and kissed me once more before taking a black Ralph Lauren jacket out his trunk and putting it around me.
Nick: "Since you so cold can we go back to my crib?"
B: "Yeah let me run inside and get my purse."
Nick: "Forreal?"
B: "Did you want me to say no?" I asked as he opened the driver's seat door.
Nick: "I just didn't think you were going to say yes."
B: "You want me to go or not?" I asked, putting my hands on my hips. He licked his lips.
Nick: "Yeah babe, go ahead. I'm gonna heat up the car."
I ran inside then realized I really didn't want to go to Nick's place. If I did, I would end up spending a night when I know I have to start my day early tomorrow. And I didn't want to have sex and cloud my judgement.
I called him from the living room couch and he answered, turning down the car radio.
Nick: "You coming or nah?"
B: "We barely stay at my house. Let's order take out and chill."
Nick: "Can we Netflix and chill, too?"
B: "Maybe. Bring the dress!"
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We watched The Wood in the living room until the chinese food arrived, laughing and playing together. Then we had a long conversation after we finished eating, since he insisted on doing the dishes and wanted me to entertain him.
B: "Entertain you how?"
Nick: "Let's play 21 questions."
B: "Babe I'm too tired. I'll make you a deal; let's limit it to 5 questions."
Nick: "Sounds like a plan."
I sat at the counter, right in front of him as he filled the sink up with soap and water. He took his shirt off and winked at me when he peeped I was staring at him.
B: "You flexin for me?"
Nick: "I'm the one asking the questions."
B: "Okay, that's all you." I laughed, throwing my hands up in surrender.
Nick: "Do you love me?" I rolled my eyes.
B: "I'm in love with you. My dad wasn't there for me all my life so I really don't like telling men I love them, even if I do."
Nick: "How would you feel if I couldn't be here anymore? Maybe if I like, moved or passed away or got arrested."
B: "What type of quest-"
Nick: "It's one of my 5 questions that you have to answer."
B: "Horrible, I guess?"
Nick: "Number 3: Where do you see yourself in 10 years?"
B: "Let's see I'd be 28 years old.. So, I see myself pregnant with my 1st child getting ready to set up my own designing company."
Nick: "That's beautiful because I honestly don't know what'll happen in 10 years. I just want to be successful. Umm... Why is it so hard for you to choose between Ricky or myself?"
B: "Nick don't do this."
Nick: "It's my 5 questions."
B: "When I'm with you I can be myself and we have similar interests- plus the sex is bomb. With Ricky, I'm finding it hard to emotionally detach myself from him. Does that make sense?"
Nick: "I guess?" he said mocking me. I flicked water from the sink at him. "Do you know if you're showing up with me tomorrow?"
B: "I know for a fact I'm showing up with you tomorrow. I just.. never mind."
Nick: "Say it."
B: "I just don't know if I'm leaving with you tomorrow."
Nick: "Right. Complicated, B. Never fails."
B: "Whats that supposed to mean?" I asked sulking. He started drying his hands and putting his shirt back on. "Answer me."
Nick: "I want to say if you have to think about it, then don't choose me."
B: "If that's how you feel, then say it."
Nick: "Will that make your decision easier?"
B: "No, it just lets me know what you're thinking. I'm not a mind reader."
He went to the living room and grabbed his jacket off the couch.
Nick: "Well I don't know if I'm showing up with you tomorrow." He opened the door. "Thanks for dinner and I hope you enjoy your dress."
B: "Nick, wait." He slammed the door behind him.
I looked at my wrist watch and it was 3:30 A.M. I locked the door behind him and assumed Amy and LaLa were sleeping over Ricky's. Slamming my room door behind me, I lye down in LaLa's bed, too lazy to climb to the top bunk.
I texted LaLa and asked her if she was okay and she responded almost immediately, saying yeah. I turned off the lights and went to sleep within the next half hour like I didn't have to be awake by 10:00 A.M.
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Someone shook my shoulder in an effort to wake me up. I heard a voice but I couldn't make out who it was. "What?" I asked, hoping they'd go away. But they persisted. "What?!" I hollered.
Voice: "You won't believe who has syphilis."
Now I was awake.
What do you think of this chapter 😆 I tried to make it as juicy as possible for yall but it gets crazier as we get to the Winter Royale, which will be the end of Part 1 for the Big V 😩 Thanks to everyone who has faithfully read every update. Please vote, comment and tell your friends 💗😇 Thanks, Again! -Jailyn