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Blog #28:

We spent hours driving around and sitting outside of Ricky and Ant's crib. Amy was in the backseat scrolling down her timeline and I was trying to calm down, since Amy and I put all our energy into stopping LaLa from crying. On the radio was The Weeknd's song, The Hills.

Amy: "This my shit. His new album been on replay for weeks now."
LaLa: "This is one of me and Ant's favorite songs. How about I just go in there and tell him right now."
Amy: "Yeah, that makes sense when you not even positive yourself." she said sarcastically.
LaLa: "Exactly. That's why I'm gonna go in there right now and tell him to take 2 more tests with me." she said, getting out the car and slamming the door.
B: "Amy, what the hell?" I asked, getting out the passenger seat.

As LaLa walked up the first step leading to Ant's door, I pulled her down by her arm.

Amy: "That was sarcasm." she said through the window.
B: "You not thinking clearly. We were being dummies and only got one test- let's just make sure after we get another tomorrow when I get home from my classes."
Amy: "That sounds like a good idea. Plus their game against Duke is only in two days." she said, shutting the backseat door.
LaLa: "I'm not worried about a damn game."
B: "Let's just get back in the car and if you want to retake the pregnancy tests with Ant, tell him at you know.. A better time. Not 2:30 in the morning."
LaLa: "You're right. Come on, let's go." she said walking around the car. As soon as I put the key in the ignition, someone came out of Ricky and Ant's apartment.
Amy: "Oh shit, it's Ant and Nick." she said from the backseat. I turned the radio down just in time for Nick to put one hand on the hood of the car, examining the inside.
Nick: "Why yall out so late at night?"
B: "Could ask yall the same question."
Ant: "Hey baby." he said, opening the passenger side door and giving LaLa a kiss. She looked like she'd seen a ghost.
LaLa: "Hey. Where yall about to go?" she asked, before looking at Amy and I.
Ant: "We just gonna run to 7 Eleven. Wassup with you? Everything good?"
B: "She just tired. We been driving for hours looking for jewelry for the Winter Royale."
LaLa: "Yeah, that. Look babe, I gotta talk to you for a second."
Ant: "You sure everything good? I'm not in trouble am I?" he asked smiling.

As LaLa started to open her mouth, a black honda civic pulled up, quick and swift.  A nigga and some girl in the passenger seat were in the front and 2 bitches in the back seat- looking beat and dusty.

LaLa: "Who the hell is that?"
Ant: "That's my mans, Rodney." he said dappin Rodney up through the window. "Aye I'm talkin to my girl right now, Ima holler at you in a second."
Nick: "Wassup Rodney."he yelled over the hood of the car, still on my side.
Rodney: "Wassup. Yall niggas coming or what?"
Nick: "Yeah man just pull over."

Rodney pulled up in front of us, with his car crooked- half in the street and half near the pavement. We heard the giggles of the whores in the backseat and I looked up at Nick. He made a face like he already knew what I was going to say, then opened the car door.

Nick: "Babe."
B: "Don't babe me. Who them bitches? 7 Eleven my ass." I said as he laughed. While Nick tried to get me to get out the car, I overheard LaLa and Ant's conversation.
LaLa: "Who them crusty bitches in the backseat?"
Ant: "I don't even know. We supposed to be going to get some drinks." he said looking at the ground.
LaLa: "So why you lie?" she asked, rolling her eyes.
Ant: "LaLa chill out. I don't know them hoes. That's not wassup for me no more- I'm all about you and you know that. Stop trippin."
LaLa: "I believe you. But I gotta talk to you about something."

Rodney impatiently honked the horn.

Ant: "Since I'm not in trouble, can it wait?"
Nick: "You not even listening to me! Can I holla at you for a second."
B: "Wait, damn." I said unbuckling my seat belt slowly.
LaLa: "Yeah baby Facetime me when you get home." she said giving him a kiss. He started to walk toward the back of Rodney's car when she unbuckled her seat belt and got out the car.

Ant: "Babe wassup?" he asked grabbing her by her hips, trying to make her back up.

Before I could hear the rest, Nick wasn't taking no for an answer and took me out the car. He threw me over his shoulder and as I hung upside down and we walked toward a tree 5 feet from where I parked, I watched LaLa and Ant go back and forth at the back of my car.

Nick: "Wassup with you? You still mad? You don't return any of my calls or texts- what type of shit is that?"
B: "The type of shit that happens when you don't understand why I'm still mad in the first place." I said leaning back toward the tree. He put his arm above my head and got closer.

Nick: "Let's not even worry about that. Stop trying to be nosey all up in LaLa and Ant situation and let's worry about us. Focus on us. I know you miss me." he said giving me a kiss.

B: "I don't know about all of that." I said looking away at my car. Ant and LaLa was touching up on each other now.

Nick: "Yo fix your attitude, before daddy gotta show you how to behave." he said smiling. His pearly whites and dimple made me wet, and I kicked one leg over the other so he wouldn't notice. But he did. "I bet you getting wet right now." he said, sliding his hand down my black tights. He knows me so well. I pushed his hand away.

B: "You want the kitty? Figure out what you did wrong."

Nick: "I will. In the meantime you gonna be missing me- especially because I got your dress. And it's fire."

B: "You're lying." I said smiling.

Nick: "No I'm not. And you lucky I fuck with you heavy. I don't spend $350 on a dress for nobody." I sucked my teeth. "Oh so you want me to take it back?" he said trying to walk away.

B: "Nooo." I said, smiling and grabbing him so he's turn back around. I threw my arms around his neck and kissed him passionately as I ran my fingers through his curls.

Nick: "You doing things to me. Even outside in front of mans- that's what we do now?" he said laughing.

B: "It's my thank you for the dress."

Nick: "Anything for you. You know, I aint get anything in a minute. Can I get a reward?"

B: "Hell nah. Figure out what you did wrong." I said walking away.

Nick: "How about a favor for favor!?" he yelled, throwing his hands up behind me. I threw up my middle fingers behind me before I felt a swift slap on my ass.

B: "You play too much!" I yelled as he ran towards Rodney's car.

LaLa and Ant were still at the back of my car, just now walking away toward Rodney's. As Ant went, LaLa followed- just like I was. I wanted to get a better look at these crusty bitches.

Rodney honked the horn again.

As Nick opened the backseat door I ran toward the car to look in the back seat. These hoes were dressed in full attire- titties out, tight black dresses and 6 inch stilettos. LaLa looked on the other side of the car, with Ant behind her.

B: "Oh fuck no! You done lost ya damn mind if you think you getting in there with these hoes."

Nick: "Babe, chill."

LaLa: "The hell is wrong with you!?" she asked, turning around and punching Ant repeatedly.

Ant: "Baby chill. They just hoes."

Hoe #1: "Hoes!? Since I'm such a hoe square up." she said getting out on my side. I backed up and adjusted my bun. Rodney got out his phone as Nick and Ant pulled me and LaLa back, trying to defuse the situation.

Rodney: "WORLDSTAR!" he yelled, getting out of the driver's seat and stepping onto the sidewalk.

The hoe kept talking shit- built like a stick. She had no type of curves & was tiny- she was the desperate hoe.

B: "You talkin all that shit but I'm posted. Swing!"

Desperate hoe: "Bitch you don't know me I'm from Chicago!"

LaLa: "Nobody gives a fuck!" she yelled from the other side of the car, being swept off her feet by Ant. Now the big hoe stepped out of the car. She was built with a nice shape- thick, fat ass and a pretty face. But her weave was crusty and her toes needed to be done. She was the experienced hoe.

Experienced hoe: "You worried about them and now you can mix me!" she yelled LaLa way. LaLa was thick but closer to skinny- half this girl's size. As I was trying to get past Nick since the desperate hoe swung at me, Amy got out the car with her headphones around her neck.

Amy: "I go to listen to The Weeknd for 20 minutes and this shit turn into WWE!" she said going toward LaLa and Ant.

The hoe was big so I guess Amy was going over there for assistance- but when she grabbed the girl by her hair from behind, hoe #3 jumped out the backseat- this was the mute hoe.

Mute hoe: "Oh hell nah!" she said taking off her heels. The experienced hoe got dragged all the way toward the back of my car, and didn't show signs of getting up. So when the mute hoe charged Amy, LaLa broke free and Amy squared up.

LaLa beat Amy to the mute hoe, just when Nick finally let me whoop the desperate hoe ass. All my punches connected and she ate them shits. After my adrenaline died down, I stopped hitting her since she was so small. Yet, she had such a big mouth, still yelling from the sidewalk.

Ricky must've heard the commotion because here he come- running down the steps in his basketball shorts with no shirt on. The street light glistened off his 6 pack- my baby Nick has one, too. I just haden't seen Ricky's in a while. I bit my lip at the sight, walking away from the hoe lying down. I fixed my face when I saw Nick out the corner of my eye.

Ricky: "Fuck is going on out here?! Yall rumbling like we don't have practice at 7:30 in the morning!" he yelled at Ant and Nick.

Nick: "Bitches was gettin outta pocket, talking shit to LaLa and B."

Ant: "We got this man. Yo Rodney, collect your hoes. I'm going to bed. I'll Facetime you after I take a shower, LaLa." he said, giving her a kiss and hug. "You good?" he asked her. "I'm perfect. Ask them raggedy hoes." she said pointing at Rodney's car, that had just sped off.

Ricky: "Aye B, you good?" he asked, giving me a hug. His warm embrace made me melt and get a little wet, since I'm not gonna lie to yall. Couldn't let it show, though. Because once again out the corner of my eye, was Nick burning holes in the side of my head. I pulled away.

B: "I'm good."

Nick: "Glad to hear that. Goodnight, B. Goodnight everybody- I'm goin in the crib." he said without making contact with anyone, walking up the steps leading to their front door.

I started to tear up as I said bye to Ant and Ricky. I got in the passenger seat and looked at the ghostly expression on LaLa's face, so immediately I didn't want to make it about me. I wiped away an involuntary tear and put the key in the ignition.

B: "Thanks for having my back, yall. I was trippin wasn't I? Sike!" I said laughing. LaLa and Amy laughed with me before I slightly turned the radio up.

My Way by Fetty Wap ft Drake was on, and we quickly got back to our old selves. We were jamming on the road, and right after the song went off, LaLa took the opportunity to speak.

LaLa: "No problem B. You know we got you."
Amy: "Right. The one hoe was big as shit, but as soon as I seen that one girl charging at me yall were right there. Thanks for having my back. That's how it's supposed to be." she said smiling in the back seat.

We all locked pinkies like 3 best friends on the playground. It wasn't long before I declared I was hungry and I drove us to McDonalds. After we ordered, while waiting in the drive thru I asked LaLa about her conversation with Anthony.

B: "So LaLa, how'd it go?"

LaLa: "Said he couldn't talk. They knew they had practice tomorrow morning but I know he stressed. He said he wanted to do something tonight but I talked him out of it. At least I thought I did. That's why he lied. I knew he was already stressing about the game against Duke so I'll just tell him about the pregnancy test tomorrow when he real chill. I'll ask on Facetime tonight if they wanna do something tomorrow. I have to know if I'm pregnant, and even after the 2 tests I want to go to a doctor to make sure."

Amy: "You really strong and I hope you don't hold it against yourself about not being careful and shit. Just be more aware next time, ya know?"

B: "Right, we all do it. I got the shot right after Ricky and I first started having sex."

LaLa: "So that's why your titties got bigger." she said laughing.

Amy: "How many girls have you been with, LaLa?"

LaLa: "More than I can count on my fingers. No, I'm kidding. Like 6. I love girls. I mean, I'm only into the physical aspect because I love Ant's penis, and like you can't make babies with women. Even if, I still couldn't see myself having an emotional connection with one."

B: "That's fair. When was the last girl?"

LaLa: "Three weeks ago. I didn't want to tell you guys because I thought I'd get judged or whatever, but now that I'm having this conversation with yall I feel comfortable. Thank you for that."

Amy: "Of course. I really wanna know who it was, though." she said leaning toward the front.

LaLa: "I'll tell you after B pulls over."

We got the food from the last window and pulled over in the McDonalds parking lot. I shoved a few fries in my mouth before thinking heavily about who the girl could have been. Then I just had to know.

B: "So who was she?"

LaLa: "You don't want to know. It'd freak you out but she's actually really good in bed. Tongue of a goddess."

Amy: "Oh my god, now I'll never let you leave the car until you tell me."

B: "LaLa stop eating your damn fries and tell us."

LaLa: "Kasey."

Amy and I screamed and got out of the car being over the top. I ran around the car laughing and choking on fries, while Amy did the same.

LaLa: "Just sit on her face and yall will be having a different type of laugh."

Amy: "You fucked Kasey!" she yelled.

LaLa: "Lower your voice! You know she's evil and probably has someone watching us just to make sure I won't tell."

We got back in the car and started driving Amy home. Of course we wanted to know how it happened, but LaLa insisted to save that for another day. We hugged Amy goodbye as she grabbed her food and ran into her dorms.

LaLa insisted we went back to the house so she could sleep. The number one thing LaLa does when she feels overwhelmed or down, is sleep. She says it cures all her problems.

As soon as we got home, I let her lay down only to be woken up in the middle of the night, by her sniffles and faint sobbing. It was pitch black when I rolled over and pressed the home button on my iPhone 6. The light from the phone made me cover my eyes and cast a shadow on the wall that LaLa saw.

LaLa: "I'm fine." she said sniffling. "Go back to sleep." I checked my phone and it was 5:37 A.M.

B: "How long have you been up?"

LaLa: "Too long. But I'm fine, really.."
B: "No you're not." I said climbing off the top bunk with my phone.

I ran my hands down the cold bars and watched my step, careful to not trip over anything. After a few more seconds, it got easier to see in the dark. I crawled behind her on the bottom bunk and snuggled up under her covers. As soon as I wrapped my arms around her tightly, she started bawling.

LaLa: "What if this destroys my relationship with Ant?"
B: "Why would you say that? Yall perfect for each other."
LaLa: "We're too young and he going places. How are we going to raise a kid?"
B: "If it came down to it, there's always adoption and-"
LaLa: "Don't say it." she said turning over. She put her arm under her head and faced me. "I really don't even want to think about that right now." she said wiping her eyes.
B: "Whatever you decide, I'll support. It's not my uterus."
LaLa: "Thanks for always being there, B. I know you get your hair done tomorrow, but afterwards could we go and do something? So I can get my mind off all this?"
B: "Of course. You gonna tell Ant?"
LaLa: "Probably will tomorrow. We should've gotten two pregnancy tests but I want him to see the results with me when I take 2 more. I know I'm pregnant. I'm such a dumb ass for not being more careful."
B: "It's in the past now. Let's go do something and have fun tomorrow. Maybe I'll put the appointment off until tomorrow morning."
LaLa: "Tomorrow's Wednesday, right? You don't have to do that."
B: "I want to. Now go to sleep because I don't know how much longer I can talk. I'm so tired."

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Later Wednesday afternoon, I called my hair dresser, Enrique and moved my hair appointment to Thursday afternoon. I had classes and had to help out at the venue for the Winter Royale, so I couldn't squeeze my hair appointment in my schedule, anyway.

I texted LaLa, which was when she told me we had a double date with Ant and Nick. I lowkey didn't want to see Nick because of my moment with Ricky, and I realized that was fucked up to do in front of him.

I walked into the venue heavy in my thoughts, until the music distracted me and I saw Lala.

The venue looked beautiful, with the exception of the bar not being set up yet. Leading up to the entrance were these big steps, that made me feel like I was walking into a movie premiere or something and I was the star actress.

After walking past the huge brown doors, there were 2 rooms to the left and right. Looking straight ahead was another set of stairs- but bigger and wider. Girls passed me by, helping set up when I felt a tap on my shoulder, taking me out of my thoughts.

Kasey: "Those are the stairs every Alpha Delta will walk down after their name is called." she said standing next to me, with her arms crossed at her chest.

She had on a white crop top and dark jeans. Kasey wasn't necessarily the baddest bitch but she was cool when she wasn't sober. Unfortunately every time I look at her, I picture her in between LaLa's legs.

B: "And what are these rooms used for?" I asked, pointing to the sides of me.
Kasey: "Coat rooms for the guests on the right- more like dressing rooms. They're huge. And then consultant rooms to the left."
B: "You do this every single year?"
Kasey: "It comes with the Alpha Delta description." she said laughing. "Sorry for being such a bitch all the time. Ever since I could remember I knew I had to go here. My grandmom and mom were Alpha Deltas. It's important to me."
B: "Well on Saturday night, I'll be on my best behavior. For you."
Kasey: "Thank you. Now go help LaLa with those bottles."

I knodded my head and walked away feeling confident about Saturday night. Peaceful thoughts were soon clouded with anxiety as I realized that'd be the day I would choose: Nick or Ricky?

While I was wrapping glittered gold ribbons around the champagne glasses, all I could think about was my dress for Saturday night. I was depending on Nick for this dress, hoping he would stick to our plans.

Around 9:30, LaLa said it was time to go and we waltzed to the big doors with our purses. We flipped our hair before walking down the steps like Naomi Campbell, then rushed home to get dressed.

We had plans to go to a hookah bar an hour off campus. I was just hoping everything went well.

I quickly took a shower, shaving in case there'd be some good make up sex between Nick and I. Then I washed my hair and put my makeup bag at my station. I started filling in my eyebrows in my black bra and panties, when LaLa walked in the room from her hot shower.

LaLa: "You know how you're gonna tell Ricky?" she asked drying off.
B: "Not yet. I care about the kid. I know by now that I want Nick, but not at the expense of hurting Ricky."
LaLa: "Well you need to do what's best for you in order to be happy. And just worry about myself." she said calmly, dropping her towel at her ankles to lotion her legs.

I couldn't stop staring at her. Her body had me mesmerized. I tried to continue what I was doing, still watching her through the mirror.

Her C-cups sat perfectly on her chest and her ass was A1. Every time I tried to look away, her movement in the mirror drew me back. I couldn't wait until the day LaLa tried something with me, because I would definitely take her up on that offer.

B: "I don't know how I'd feel without Ricky in my life anymore. I want to be with Nick but not at the expense of losing Ricky."
LaLa: "So if Ricky's not okay with it, you won't be with Nick? You know he won't be cool with it at all. You don't know who you're gonna pick, do you?" she asked smiling.
B: "I guess that's what I'm hoping for. For Ricky to not be okay with it. I can't explain it. Nick's been good to me but I feel stuck like glue to Ricky. He took my virginity- that's hard for me to get over."
LaLa: "As your best friend, I'm gonna let you know that it's stupid to throw someone away that has shown they will go to the moon and back for you. Ricky is your first true love- I get it. But sometimes, that stuff passes. Phases pass and people change and people move on with their lives. It passes."
B: "I get what you're saying. Now that we discussed that and you confused me even more, let's get in the car before we show up even more late than we already are."

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I pulled up to the hookah bar, fixing up my makeup. LaLa reapplied lip gloss, looking in her mini mirror before turning down the radio.

LaLa: "I meant to ask. Are you and Nick on good terms right now?"
B: "I haven't talked to Nick since he stormed in the house last night."
LaLa: "Well we're here and you need your dress so you mind as well stop being petty and make up."

I stepped out the car in my all white, aside from the plaid shirt around my waist. My red pumps kicked passed the rocks as we walked through the parking lot of the hookah bar.

LaLa had on a long black dress that hugged her curves. We took pictures before walking in- an hour late.

Host: "Hi welcome to Nickies. Party for 2?"
Ant: "Actually they're with me." he said calmly, walking down the mini steps, leading to the front where we were.

Ant waved at me before putting his hand around LaLa's waist. He whispered in her ear, making her laugh. It made me want to make up with Nick even more.

Ant led us up the mini stairs and to our section where Nick was sitting on the couch, smoking hookah.

Nick looked fine, with his strong jawline and Polo hat. I switched extra hard so he could look at my ass when I sat down.

I sat next to Nick and LaLa and Ant sat to my right. I waited for Nick to greet me but he just blew smoke my way, making eye contact every other minute.

Ant: "Yall want a drink?"
B: "Yeah. I'm gonna go over to the bar. Nick I'm not 21 yet. Can you come with me, please?"
Nick: "Anything for you." he said under his breath. I rolled my eyes.

We walked out of our section and over to the bar. I sat down and patted the seat for him to sit next to me, since he looked like he wasn't going to.

B: "It wasn't what you thought."
Nick: "Am i stupid for falling for a girl that's clearly in love with someone else?"
B: "Am I stupid for falling for someone that clearly doesn't trust me? There's nothing going on between us."
Nick: "You light up when you see that nigga. I know I didn't take your virginity but I can give you the world and that's all I've tried to do. Please tell me you're not playing me, B."
B: "I'm not playing you. I'm all about you and in a couple days, we won't have to keep up this charade anymore."
Nick: "I never caught feelings for no females before. You changed me B, and if you ever mess with Ricky again, we done. Because it'll fuck me up."
B: "Aww baby give me a kiss."
Nick: "You got a nigga acting soft and shit."

I gave him a kiss and hug before my drink arrived. After he poured his heart out to me like that, I definitely couldn't leave him. In that moment, I made my decision.

We grabbed our drinks and smoked hookah. LaLa made the excuse that she was sick when Ant started asking questions, and eventually led him outside. Ant only had 1 drink so I knew he wasn't on- I was just hoping he said the right things.

Well hope doesn't do the trick sometimes, and this was one of those times. LaLa stormed in the building like a hurricane, grabbed her purse and leaving back out. Nick understood when I gave him a kiss and ran after her, grabbing my car keys and purse.

I got to the car where she was waiting with her face in her hands. I unlocked the car doors and asked if she wanted to leave. I couldn't make out what she was saying but her head nod confirmed it and I got in the car as quickly as possible. She was a wreck.

When I put the key in the ignition I realized I'd left my phone, so I rushed back inside. I was greeted again by a grumpy Nick- holding my phone in his right hand a drink in the other.

Nick: "But you want me to trust you?" he asked, throwing my phone on the table before going in the men's bathroom to the right of the bar.
B: "What?" I grabbed my phone and read the text:

Ricky Licky 👅: So when we gonna meet up and stop playing these games?

I grabbed my phone and went in the men's bathroom. When I walked in, an old man bumped shoulders with me, making me stumble in my heels.

Man: "Hey lady! You can't be in here!"
B: "Shut up. Nick!!" I yelled. He walked out the stall.
Nick: "Yo get out." he said walking over to the sink.
B: "Don't be slamming my shit down and I don't know what Ricky talking about. I'm sick of your insecure shit."

I left the building so mad I could've cried. But looking at Lala who was still upset, I just drove home.

As soon as we were in our room we got comfortable, taking off all of our make up and getting in our pajamas. LaLa put on a big shirt and laid down on her phone while I brushed my hair out.

B: "I promise right after my classes-"
LaLa: "And hair appointment."
B: "That, too. We'll go get 2 more pregnancy tests." I said walking over to the ladder, and getting on top bunk.
LaLa: "Thanks. I don't know what happened earlier. Right after I told him, the first thing he could say after "Are you sure?" was abortion. If he doesn't see me being the mother of his children, then why are we together?"
B: "I'm not taking sides, but maybe he just needs time to process it."
LaLa: "Maybe, but my expectations for his response were high and he definitely didn't meet them."
B: "Just give it time. He'll come around."
LaLa: "Thanks for everything, B."
B: "Of course."

I put my head to my pillow and instantly felt like I was floating.

LaLa: "B?"
B: "Yeah?"
LaLa: "Can I come up there?"
B: "Sure." I faced the wall and made space.

I felt the bed tip her way when she got closer to me and almost immediately, I started to feel like it was that night in high school again. The night when Madison sucked me dry. I put one leg over the other and closed my eyes hard.

LaLa got so close- putting her front to my back, making my heart beat speed up. She threw her arm around my waist and got closer. So close I could feel her breath on the back of my neck.

LaLa: "B."
B: "Hmm?"
LaLa: "You still wanna know how I got Kasey?"
B: "Mhm."
LaLa: "This is how."

She pulled my hair behind my ear, kissing on my neck. As if that wasn't making me wet enough, LaLa sucked 2 fingers and slid her hand down my lace panties.

She slid 2 fingers in and got up, starting to get on top.

LaLa: "Tell me how low you want me to go."

She left wet kisses above my belly button.

B: "Lower."

She licked and sucked under my belly button.

B: "Lower."

She licked across my bikini line.

B: "A little lower."

She kissed my right thigh.

B: "A little higher."

She slowly ran her tongue up and down , side to side around my clit. She giggled at my moans, going harder and faster the louder I got.

The faster she went the more I pulled her hair and shoved her face in farther. She slid in 2 fingers in, making me go crazy. I sat up and damn near pulled a muscle trying to go her pace. Then she pulled a vibrator from under her.

LaLa: "B! Wake up!" I tossed and turned as the dream faded, then realized my phone was vibrating next to me at 5:00 in the morning.

Nick was calling me, but I declined the call trying to gather my thoughts.

It was all a dream? I thought to myself.

LaLa: "B, were you moaning?" she asked with her head poked out from the bottom bunk.
B: "No why you ask that?"
LaLa: "Who was it?"
B: "Who was who?" I asked sitting up, putting my hair in a bun.
LaLa: "Who was your sex dream about?"
B: "Nobody." I laid back down, throwing my blanket over my shoulder.
LaLa: "Funny. Thought I heard my name." she mumbled.

My eyes popped and I just laughed. I needed some act right from Nick ASAP.

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After my hair appointment, Amy and I left to go meet LaLa. I'd promised her we would go get her 2 more pregnancy tests, so the whole drive to the Alpha Delta house, I was anxious for her. I couldn't imagine what she's going through- I couldn't have a baby myself, right now. I don't have a job and my mom and dad are stuck picking up the pieces.

I pulled up to the house just thinking about life, and what I was going to do. If all else fails, I'll just call Joseph. Thinking heavily, a hard knock on the car window distracted me.

LaLa: "You ready?" she asked, from outside the window.

B: "Are you ready?" I asked laughing.

LaLa: "Yup. Whatever happens I'll be fine."

Amy: "Glad you feel that way."

B: "LaLa you drive." I got out the car and walked over to the passenger's seat. I was waiting for her to say something about my hair.

LaLa: "Oh my god, yall. Your hair is so cute!" she told Amy and I. Amy had more chestnut-brown weave put in and got it curled.

Amy: "Thanks, LaLa."

LaLa: "That's such a cute color, B. You bold because I wouldn't think of a greyish-purplish color. Who picked it?"

Amy: "You know that was all her. Bold B."
B: "Really? They usually call me complicated."
LaLa: "Enough joking around. I'm getting grouchy without my Iced Skinny Mocha so we need to stop at Starbucks, ladies."

Neither Amy or myself objected, and after we got our Iced Skinny Mochas, we went to CVS and bought 2 more tests. In the store, LaLa also made an appointment with her doctor.

We drove home and did the tests. Each time Amy read the results- and they were negative.

Amy: "See? I told you. It was a false positive. You should still go to the doctor's office, though- to make sure."

LaLa: "I'm on cloud 9 right now, yall."

We heard someone beep their car horn outside. When we got downstairs, it was Ant. He was dressed in all black- as usual- leaning on a brand new navy blue Cadillac Elmiraj. Amy and I cried for her, as he got down on one knee. LaLa shoved her face into her hands as Ant kneeled at her feet.

Ant: "No, I'm not proposing. Not yet." he said laughing. "But I hope you forgive me. What I said the other night came out wrong. I just needed time to process my thoughts and I apologize for hurting your feelings. If that's my lil man you carrying, I'll take care of him 100%. This my gift to you for not being done with me on the spot. I'm sorry LaLa."

LaLa: "I forgive you." she said smiling. They hugged and kissed as Amy and I hugged each other. "Baby it was a false positive."

Ant: "Well that's okay. We'll try next time.. when we actually ready." he said, slapping her ass.

B: "I'm so proud of yall." I said from the Alpha Delta steps.
LaLa: "What do you say about us taking a test drive?"
Ant: "It's all yours, baby. Here's the keys." he said, dangling them. She grabbed the keys, swiftly.

LaLa: "We'll be back later, yall. Before the game starts. About to go give Ant his good luck charm." she said twerking in the middle of the street. We laughed as he hopped in the passenger seat and we went back in the house.

Finally I realized that I needed to call Nick back. It's Friday- the day of their big game and I didn't want Nick to go on the field without an open mind. I threw on my clothes and called Nick. But he didn't answer.

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Blog #28:

We spent hours driving around and sitting outside of Ricky and Ant's crib. Amy was in the backseat scrolling down her timeline and I was trying to calm down, since Amy and I put all our energy into stopping LaLa from crying. On the radio was The Weeknd's song, The Hills.

Amy: "This my shit. His new album been on replay for weeks now."
LaLa: "This is one of me and Ant's favorite songs. How about I just go in there and tell him right now."
Amy: "Yeah, that makes sense when you not even positive yourself." she said sarcastically.
LaLa: "Exactly. That's why I'm gonna go in there right now and tell him to take 2 more tests with me." she said, getting out the car and slamming the door.
B: "Amy, what the hell?" I asked, getting out the passenger seat.

As LaLa walked up the first step leading to Ant's door, I pulled her down by her arm.

Amy: "That was sarcasm." she said through the window.
B: "You not thinking clearly. We were being dummies and only got one test- let's just make sure after we get another tomorrow when I get home from my classes."
Amy: "That sounds like a good idea. Plus their game against Duke is only in two days." she said, shutting the backseat door.
LaLa: "I'm not worried about a damn game."
B: "Let's just get back in the car and if you want to retake the pregnancy tests with Ant, tell him at you know.. A better time. Not 2:30 in the morning."
LaLa: "You're right. Come on, let's go." she said walking around the car. As soon as I put the key in the ignition, someone came out of Ricky and Ant's apartment.
Amy: "Oh shit, it's Ant and Nick." she said from the backseat. I turned the radio down just in time for Nick to put one hand on the hood of the car, examining the inside.
Nick: "Why yall out so late at night?"
B: "Could ask yall the same question."
Ant: "Hey baby." he said, opening the passenger side door and giving LaLa a kiss. She looked like she'd seen a ghost.
LaLa: "Hey. Where yall about to go?" she asked, before looking at Amy and I.
Ant: "We just gonna run to 7 Eleven. Wassup with you? Everything good?"
B: "She just tired. We been driving for hours looking for jewelry for the Winter Royale."
LaLa: "Yeah, that. Look babe, I gotta talk to you for a second."
Ant: "You sure everything good? I'm not in trouble am I?" he asked smiling.

As LaLa started to open her mouth, a black honda civic pulled up, quick and swift.  A nigga and some girl in the passenger seat were in the front and 2 bitches in the back seat- looking beat and dusty.

LaLa: "Who the hell is that?"
Ant: "That's my mans, Rodney." he said dappin Rodney up through the window. "Aye I'm talkin to my girl right now, Ima holler at you in a second."
Nick: "Wassup Rodney."he yelled over the hood of the car, still on my side.
Rodney: "Wassup. Yall niggas coming or what?"
Nick: "Yeah man just pull over."

Rodney pulled up in front of us, with his car crooked- half in the street and half near the pavement. We heard the giggles of the whores in the backseat and I looked up at Nick. He made a face like he already knew what I was going to say, then opened the car door.

Nick: "Babe."
B: "Don't babe me. Who them bitches? 7 Eleven my ass." I said as he laughed. While Nick tried to get me to get out the car, I overheard LaLa and Ant's conversation.
LaLa: "Who them crusty bitches in the backseat?"
Ant: "I don't even know. We supposed to be going to get some drinks." he said looking at the ground.
LaLa: "So why you lie?" she asked, rolling her eyes.
Ant: "LaLa chill out. I don't know them hoes. That's not wassup for me no more- I'm all about you and you know that. Stop trippin."
LaLa: "I believe you. But I gotta talk to you about something."

Rodney impatiently honked the horn.

Ant: "Since I'm not in trouble, can it wait?"
Nick: "You not even listening to me! Can I holla at you for a second."
B: "Wait, damn." I said unbuckling my seat belt slowly.
LaLa: "Yeah baby Facetime me when you get home." she said giving him a kiss. He started to walk toward the back of Rodney's car when she unbuckled her seat belt and got out the car.

Ant: "Babe wassup?" he asked grabbing her by her hips, trying to make her back up.

Before I could hear the rest, Nick wasn't taking no for an answer and took me out the car. He threw me over his shoulder and as I hung upside down and we walked toward a tree 5 feet from where I parked, I watched LaLa and Ant go back and forth at the back of my car.

Nick: "Wassup with you? You still mad? You don't return any of my calls or texts- what type of shit is that?"
B: "The type of shit that happens when you don't understand why I'm still mad in the first place." I said leaning back toward the tree. He put his arm above my head and got closer.

Nick: "Let's not even worry about that. Stop trying to be nosey all up in LaLa and Ant situation and let's worry about us. Focus on us. I know you miss me." he said giving me a kiss.

B: "I don't know about all of that." I said looking away at my car. Ant and LaLa was touching up on each other now.

Nick: "Yo fix your attitude, before daddy gotta show you how to behave." he said smiling. His pearly whites and dimple made me wet, and I kicked one leg over the other so he wouldn't notice. But he did. "I bet you getting wet right now." he said, sliding his hand down my black tights. He knows me so well. I pushed his hand away.

B: "You want the kitty? Figure out what you did wrong."

Nick: "I will. In the meantime you gonna be missing me- especially because I got your dress. And it's fire."

B: "You're lying." I said smiling.

Nick: "No I'm not. And you lucky I fuck with you heavy. I don't spend $350 on a dress for nobody." I sucked my teeth. "Oh so you want me to take it back?" he said trying to walk away.

B: "Nooo." I said, smiling and grabbing him so he's turn back around. I threw my arms around his neck and kissed him passionately as I ran my fingers through his curls.

Nick: "You doing things to me. Even outside in front of mans- that's what we do now?" he said laughing.

B: "It's my thank you for the dress."

Nick: "Anything for you. You know, I aint get anything in a minute. Can I get a reward?"

B: "Hell nah. Figure out what you did wrong." I said walking away.

Nick: "How about a favor for favor!?" he yelled, throwing his hands up behind me. I threw up my middle fingers behind me before I felt a swift slap on my ass.

B: "You play too much!" I yelled as he ran towards Rodney's car.

LaLa and Ant were still at the back of my car, just now walking away toward Rodney's. As Ant went, LaLa followed- just like I was. I wanted to get a better look at these crusty bitches.

Rodney honked the horn again.

As Nick opened the backseat door I ran toward the car to look in the back seat. These hoes were dressed in full attire- titties out, tight black dresses and 6 inch stilettos. LaLa looked on the other side of the car, with Ant behind her.

B: "Oh fuck no! You done lost ya damn mind if you think you getting in there with these hoes."

Nick: "Babe, chill."

LaLa: "The hell is wrong with you!?" she asked, turning around and punching Ant repeatedly.

Ant: "Baby chill. They just hoes."

Hoe #1: "Hoes!? Since I'm such a hoe square up." she said getting out on my side. I backed up and adjusted my bun. Rodney got out his phone as Nick and Ant pulled me and LaLa back, trying to defuse the situation.

Rodney: "WORLDSTAR!" he yelled, getting out of the driver's seat and stepping onto the sidewalk.

The hoe kept talking shit- built like a stick. She had no type of curves & was tiny- she was the desperate hoe.

B: "You talkin all that shit but I'm posted. Swing!"

Desperate hoe: "Bitch you don't know me I'm from Chicago!"

LaLa: "Nobody gives a fuck!" she yelled from the other side of the car, being swept off her feet by Ant. Now the big hoe stepped out of the car. She was built with a nice shape- thick, fat ass and a pretty face. But her weave was crusty and her toes needed to be done. She was the experienced hoe.

Experienced hoe: "You worried about them and now you can mix me!" she yelled LaLa way. LaLa was thick but closer to skinny- half this girl's size. As I was trying to get past Nick since the desperate hoe swung at me, Amy got out the car with her headphones around her neck.

Amy: "I go to listen to The Weeknd for 20 minutes and this shit turn into WWE!" she said going toward LaLa and Ant.

The hoe was big so I guess Amy was going over there for assistance- but when she grabbed the girl by her hair from behind, hoe #3 jumped out the backseat- this was the mute hoe.

Mute hoe: "Oh hell nah!" she said taking off her heels. The experienced hoe got dragged all the way toward the back of my car, and didn't show signs of getting up. So when the mute hoe charged Amy, LaLa broke free and Amy squared up.

LaLa beat Amy to the mute hoe, just when Nick finally let me whoop the desperate hoe ass. All my punches connected and she ate them shits. After my adrenaline died down, I stopped hitting her since she was so small. Yet, she had such a big mouth, still yelling from the sidewalk.

Ricky must've heard the commotion because here he come- running down the steps in his basketball shorts with no shirt on. The street light glistened off his 6 pack- my baby Nick has one, too. I just haden't seen Ricky's in a while. I bit my lip at the sight, walking away from the hoe lying down. I fixed my face when I saw Nick out the corner of my eye.

Ricky: "Fuck is going on out here?! Yall rumbling like we don't have practice at 7:30 in the morning!" he yelled at Ant and Nick.

Nick: "Bitches was gettin outta pocket, talking shit to LaLa and B."

Ant: "We got this man. Yo Rodney, collect your hoes. I'm going to bed. I'll Facetime you after I take a shower, LaLa." he said, giving her a kiss and hug. "You good?" he asked her. "I'm perfect. Ask them raggedy hoes." she said pointing at Rodney's car, that had just sped off.

Ricky: "Aye B, you good?" he asked, giving me a hug. His warm embrace made me melt and get a little wet, since I'm not gonna lie to yall. Couldn't let it show, though. Because once again out the corner of my eye, was Nick burning holes in the side of my head. I pulled away.

B: "I'm good."

Nick: "Glad to hear that. Goodnight, B. Goodnight everybody- I'm goin in the crib." he said without making contact with anyone, walking up the steps leading to their front door.

I started to tear up as I said bye to Ant and Ricky. I got in the passenger seat and looked at the ghostly expression on LaLa's face, so immediately I didn't want to make it about me. I wiped away an involuntary tear and put the key in the ignition.

B: "Thanks for having my back, yall. I was trippin wasn't I? Sike!" I said laughing. LaLa and Amy laughed with me before I slightly turned the radio up.

My Way by Fetty Wap ft Drake was on, and we quickly got back to our old selves. We were jamming on the road, and right after the song went off, LaLa took the opportunity to speak.

LaLa: "No problem B. You know we got you."
Amy: "Right. The one hoe was big as shit, but as soon as I seen that one girl charging at me yall were right there. Thanks for having my back. That's how it's supposed to be." she said smiling in the back seat.

We all locked pinkies like 3 best friends on the playground. It wasn't long before I declared I was hungry and I drove us to McDonalds. After we ordered, while waiting in the drive thru I asked LaLa about her conversation with Anthony.

B: "So LaLa, how'd it go?"

LaLa: "Said he couldn't talk. They knew they had practice tomorrow morning but I know he stressed. He said he wanted to do something tonight but I talked him out of it. At least I thought I did. That's why he lied. I knew he was already stressing about the game against Duke so I'll just tell him about the pregnancy test tomorrow when he real chill. I'll ask on Facetime tonight if they wanna do something tomorrow. I have to know if I'm pregnant, and even after the 2 tests I want to go to a doctor to make sure."

Amy: "You really strong and I hope you don't hold it against yourself about not being careful and shit. Just be more aware next time, ya know?"

B: "Right, we all do it. I got the shot right after Ricky and I first started having sex."

LaLa: "So that's why your titties got bigger." she said laughing.

Amy: "How many girls have you been with, LaLa?"

LaLa: "More than I can count on my fingers. No, I'm kidding. Like 6. I love girls. I mean, I'm only into the physical aspect because I love Ant's penis, and like you can't make babies with women. Even if, I still couldn't see myself having an emotional connection with one."

B: "That's fair. When was the last girl?"

LaLa: "Three weeks ago. I didn't want to tell you guys because I thought I'd get judged or whatever, but now that I'm having this conversation with yall I feel comfortable. Thank you for that."

Amy: "Of course. I really wanna know who it was, though." she said leaning toward the front.

LaLa: "I'll tell you after B pulls over."

We got the food from the last window and pulled over in the McDonalds parking lot. I shoved a few fries in my mouth before thinking heavily about who the girl could have been. Then I just had to know.

B: "So who was she?"

LaLa: "You don't want to know. It'd freak you out but she's actually really good in bed. Tongue of a goddess."

Amy: "Oh my god, now I'll never let you leave the car until you tell me."

B: "LaLa stop eating your damn fries and tell us."

LaLa: "Kasey."

Amy and I screamed and got out of the car being over the top. I ran around the car laughing and choking on fries, while Amy did the same.

LaLa: "Just sit on her face and yall will be having a different type of laugh."

Amy: "You fucked Kasey!" she yelled.

LaLa: "Lower your voice! You know she's evil and probably has someone watching us just to make sure I won't tell."

We got back in the car and started driving Amy home. Of course we wanted to know how it happened, but LaLa insisted to save that for another day. We hugged Amy goodbye as she grabbed her food and ran into her dorms.

LaLa insisted we went back to the house so she could sleep. The number one thing LaLa does when she feels overwhelmed or down, is sleep. She says it cures all her problems.

As soon as we got home, I let her lay down only to be woken up in the middle of the night, by her sniffles and faint sobbing. It was pitch black when I rolled over and pressed the home button on my iPhone 6. The light from the phone made me cover my eyes and cast a shadow on the wall that LaLa saw.

LaLa: "I'm fine." she said sniffling. "Go back to sleep." I checked my phone and it was 5:37 A.M.

B: "How long have you been up?"

LaLa: "Too long. But I'm fine, really.."
B: "No you're not." I said climbing off the top bunk with my phone.

I ran my hands down the cold bars and watched my step, careful to not trip over anything. After a few more seconds, it got easier to see in the dark. I crawled behind her on the bottom bunk and snuggled up under her covers. As soon as I wrapped my arms around her tightly, she started bawling.

LaLa: "What if this destroys my relationship with Ant?"
B: "Why would you say that? Yall perfect for each other."
LaLa: "We're too young and he going places. How are we going to raise a kid?"
B: "If it came down to it, there's always adoption and-"
LaLa: "Don't say it." she said turning over. She put her arm under her head and faced me. "I really don't even want to think about that right now." she said wiping her eyes.
B: "Whatever you decide, I'll support. It's not my uterus."
LaLa: "Thanks for always being there, B. I know you get your hair done tomorrow, but afterwards could we go and do something? So I can get my mind off all this?"
B: "Of course. You gonna tell Ant?"
LaLa: "Probably will tomorrow. We should've gotten two pregnancy tests but I want him to see the results with me when I take 2 more. I know I'm pregnant. I'm such a dumb ass for not being more careful."
B: "It's in the past now. Let's go do something and have fun tomorrow. Maybe I'll put the appointment off until tomorrow morning."
LaLa: "Tomorrow's Wednesday, right? You don't have to do that."
B: "I want to. Now go to sleep because I don't know how much longer I can talk. I'm so tired."

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Later Wednesday afternoon, I called my hair dresser, Enrique and moved my hair appointment to Thursday afternoon. I had classes and had to help out at the venue for the Winter Royale, so I couldn't squeeze my hair appointment in my schedule, anyway.

I texted LaLa, which was when she told me we had a double date with Ant and Nick. I lowkey didn't want to see Nick because of my moment with Ricky, and I realized that was fucked up to do in front of him.

I walked into the venue heavy in my thoughts, until the music distracted me and I saw Lala.

The venue looked beautiful, with the exception of the bar not being set up yet. Leading up to the entrance were these big steps, that made me feel like I was walking into a movie premiere or something and I was the star actress.

After walking past the huge brown doors, there were 2 rooms to the left and right. Looking straight ahead was another set of stairs- but bigger and wider. Girls passed me by, helping set up when I felt a tap on my shoulder, taking me out of my thoughts.

Kasey: "Those are the stairs every Alpha Delta will walk down after their name is called." she said standing next to me, with her arms crossed at her chest.

She had on a white crop top and dark jeans. Kasey wasn't necessarily the baddest bitch but she was cool when she wasn't sober. Unfortunately every time I look at her, I picture her in between LaLa's legs.

B: "And what are these rooms used for?" I asked, pointing to the sides of me.
Kasey: "Coat rooms for the guests on the right- more like dressing rooms. They're huge. And then consultant rooms to the left."
B: "You do this every single year?"
Kasey: "It comes with the Alpha Delta description." she said laughing. "Sorry for being such a bitch all the time. Ever since I could remember I knew I had to go here. My grandmom and mom were Alpha Deltas. It's important to me."
B: "Well on Saturday night, I'll be on my best behavior. For you."
Kasey: "Thank you. Now go help LaLa with those bottles."

I knodded my head and walked away feeling confident about Saturday night. Peaceful thoughts were soon clouded with anxiety as I realized that'd be the day I would choose: Nick or Ricky?

While I was wrapping glittered gold ribbons around the champagne glasses, all I could think about was my dress for Saturday night. I was depending on Nick for this dress, hoping he would stick to our plans.

Around 9:30, LaLa said it was time to go and we waltzed to the big doors with our purses. We flipped our hair before walking down the steps like Naomi Campbell, then rushed home to get dressed.

We had plans to go to a hookah bar an hour off campus. I was just hoping everything went well.

I quickly took a shower, shaving in case there'd be some good make up sex between Nick and I. Then I washed my hair and put my makeup bag at my station. I started filling in my eyebrows in my black bra and panties, when LaLa walked in the room from her hot shower.

LaLa: "You know how you're gonna tell Ricky?" she asked drying off.
B: "Not yet. I care about the kid. I know by now that I want Nick, but not at the expense of hurting Ricky."
LaLa: "Well you need to do what's best for you in order to be happy. And just worry about myself." she said calmly, dropping her towel at her ankles to lotion her legs.

I couldn't stop staring at her. Her body had me mesmerized. I tried to continue what I was doing, still watching her through the mirror.

Her C-cups sat perfectly on her chest and her ass was A1. Every time I tried to look away, her movement in the mirror drew me back. I couldn't wait until the day LaLa tried something with me, because I would definitely take her up on that offer.

B: "I don't know how I'd feel without Ricky in my life anymore. I want to be with Nick but not at the expense of losing Ricky."
LaLa: "So if Ricky's not okay with it, you won't be with Nick? You know he won't be cool with it at all. You don't know who you're gonna pick, do you?" she asked smiling.
B: "I guess that's what I'm hoping for. For Ricky to not be okay with it. I can't explain it. Nick's been good to me but I feel stuck like glue to Ricky. He took my virginity- that's hard for me to get over."
LaLa: "As your best friend, I'm gonna let you know that it's stupid to throw someone away that has shown they will go to the moon and back for you. Ricky is your first true love- I get it. But sometimes, that stuff passes. Phases pass and people change and people move on with their lives. It passes."
B: "I get what you're saying. Now that we discussed that and you confused me even more, let's get in the car before we show up even more late than we already are."

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I pulled up to the hookah bar, fixing up my makeup. LaLa reapplied lip gloss, looking in her mini mirror before turning down the radio.

LaLa: "I meant to ask. Are you and Nick on good terms right now?"
B: "I haven't talked to Nick since he stormed in the house last night."
LaLa: "Well we're here and you need your dress so you mind as well stop being petty and make up."

I stepped out the car in my all white, aside from the plaid shirt around my waist. My red pumps kicked passed the rocks as we walked through the parking lot of the hookah bar.

LaLa had on a long black dress that hugged her curves. We took pictures before walking in- an hour late.

Host: "Hi welcome to Nickies. Party for 2?"
Ant: "Actually they're with me." he said calmly, walking down the mini steps, leading to the front where we were.

Ant waved at me before putting his hand around LaLa's waist. He whispered in her ear, making her laugh. It made me want to make up with Nick even more.

Ant led us up the mini stairs and to our section where Nick was sitting on the couch, smoking hookah.

Nick looked fine, with his strong jawline and Polo hat. I switched extra hard so he could look at my ass when I sat down.

I sat next to Nick and LaLa and Ant sat to my right. I waited for Nick to greet me but he just blew smoke my way, making eye contact every other minute.

Ant: "Yall want a drink?"
B: "Yeah. I'm gonna go over to the bar. Nick I'm not 21 yet. Can you come with me, please?"
Nick: "Anything for you." he said under his breath. I rolled my eyes.

We walked out of our section and over to the bar. I sat down and patted the seat for him to sit next to me, since he looked like he wasn't going to.

B: "It wasn't what you thought."
Nick: "Am i stupid for falling for a girl that's clearly in love with someone else?"
B: "Am I stupid for falling for someone that clearly doesn't trust me? There's nothing going on between us."
Nick: "You light up when you see that nigga. I know I didn't take your virginity but I can give you the world and that's all I've tried to do. Please tell me you're not playing me, B."
B: "I'm not playing you. I'm all about you and in a couple days, we won't have to keep up this charade anymore."
Nick: "I never caught feelings for no females before. You changed me B, and if you ever mess with Ricky again, we done. Because it'll fuck me up."
B: "Aww baby give me a kiss."
Nick: "You got a nigga acting soft and shit."

I gave him a kiss and hug before my drink arrived. After he poured his heart out to me like that, I definitely couldn't leave him. In that moment, I made my decision.

We grabbed our drinks and smoked hookah. LaLa made the excuse that she was sick when Ant started asking questions, and eventually led him outside. Ant only had 1 drink so I knew he wasn't on- I was just hoping he said the right things.

Well hope doesn't do the trick sometimes, and this was one of those times. LaLa stormed in the building like a hurricane, grabbed her purse and leaving back out. Nick understood when I gave him a kiss and ran after her, grabbing my car keys and purse.

I got to the car where she was waiting with her face in her hands. I unlocked the car doors and asked if she wanted to leave. I couldn't make out what she was saying but her head nod confirmed it and I got in the car as quickly as possible. She was a wreck.

When I put the key in the ignition I realized I'd left my phone, so I rushed back inside. I was greeted again by a grumpy Nick- holding my phone in his right hand a drink in the other.

Nick: "But you want me to trust you?" he asked, throwing my phone on the table before going in the men's bathroom to the right of the bar.
B: "What?" I grabbed my phone and read the text:

Ricky Licky 👅: So when we gonna meet up and stop playing these games?

I grabbed my phone and went in the men's bathroom. When I walked in, an old man bumped shoulders with me, making me stumble in my heels.

Man: "Hey lady! You can't be in here!"
B: "Shut up. Nick!!" I yelled. He walked out the stall.
Nick: "Yo get out." he said walking over to the sink.
B: "Don't be slamming my shit down and I don't know what Ricky talking about. I'm sick of your insecure shit."

I left the building so mad I could've cried. But looking at Lala who was still upset, I just drove home.

As soon as we were in our room we got comfortable, taking off all of our make up and getting in our pajamas. LaLa put on a big shirt and laid down on her phone while I brushed my hair out.

B: "I promise right after my classes-"
LaLa: "And hair appointment."
B: "That, too. We'll go get 2 more pregnancy tests." I said walking over to the ladder, and getting on top bunk.
LaLa: "Thanks. I don't know what happened earlier. Right after I told him, the first thing he could say after "Are you sure?" was abortion. If he doesn't see me being the mother of his children, then why are we together?"
B: "I'm not taking sides, but maybe he just needs time to process it."
LaLa: "Maybe, but my expectations for his response were high and he definitely didn't meet them."
B: "Just give it time. He'll come around."
LaLa: "Thanks for everything, B."
B: "Of course."

I put my head to my pillow and instantly felt like I was floating.

LaLa: "B?"
B: "Yeah?"
LaLa: "Can I come up there?"
B: "Sure." I faced the wall and made space.

I felt the bed tip her way when she got closer to me and almost immediately, I started to feel like it was that night in high school again. The night when Madison sucked me dry. I put one leg over the other and closed my eyes hard.

LaLa got so close- putting her front to my back, making my heart beat speed up. She threw her arm around my waist and got closer. So close I could feel her breath on the back of my neck.

LaLa: "B."
B: "Hmm?"
LaLa: "You still wanna know how I got Kasey?"
B: "Mhm."
LaLa: "This is how."

She pulled my hair behind my ear, kissing on my neck. As if that wasn't making me wet enough, LaLa sucked 2 fingers and slid her hand down my lace panties.

She slid 2 fingers in and got up, starting to get on top.

LaLa: "Tell me how low you want me to go."

She left wet kisses above my belly button.

B: "Lower."

She licked and sucked under my belly button.

B: "Lower."

She licked across my bikini line.

B: "A little lower."

She kissed my right thigh.

B: "A little higher."

She slowly ran her tongue up and down , side to side around my clit. She giggled at my moans, going harder and faster the louder I got.

The faster she went the more I pulled her hair and shoved her face in farther. She slid in 2 fingers in, making me go crazy. I sat up and damn near pulled a muscle trying to go her pace. Then she pulled a vibrator from under her.

LaLa: "B! Wake up!" I tossed and turned as the dream faded, then realized my phone was vibrating next to me at 5:00 in the morning.

Nick was calling me, but I declined the call trying to gather my thoughts.

It was all a dream? I thought to myself.

LaLa: "B, were you moaning?" she asked with her head poked out from the bottom bunk.
B: "No why you ask that?"
LaLa: "Who was it?"
B: "Who was who?" I asked sitting up, putting my hair in a bun.
LaLa: "Who was your sex dream about?"
B: "Nobody." I laid back down, throwing my blanket over my shoulder.
LaLa: "Funny. Thought I heard my name." she mumbled.

My eyes popped and I just laughed. I needed some act right from Nick ASAP.

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After my hair appointment, Amy and I left to go meet LaLa. I'd promised her we would go get her 2 more pregnancy tests, so the whole drive to the Alpha Delta house, I was anxious for her. I couldn't imagine what she's going through- I couldn't have a baby myself, right now. I don't have a job and my mom and dad are stuck picking up the pieces.

I pulled up to the house just thinking about life, and what I was going to do. If all else fails, I'll just call Joseph. Thinking heavily, a hard knock on the car window distracted me.

LaLa: "You ready?" she asked, from outside the window.

B: "Are you ready?" I asked laughing.

LaLa: "Yup. Whatever happens I'll be fine."

Amy: "Glad you feel that way."

B: "LaLa you drive." I got out the car and walked over to the passenger's seat. I was waiting for her to say something about my hair.

LaLa: "Oh my god, yall. Your hair is so cute!" she told Amy and I. Amy had more chestnut-brown weave put in and got it curled.

Amy: "Thanks, LaLa."

LaLa: "That's such a cute color, B. You bold because I wouldn't think of a greyish-purplish color. Who picked it?"

Amy: "You know that was all her. Bold B."
B: "Really? They usually call me complicated."
LaLa: "Enough joking around. I'm getting grouchy without my Iced Skinny Mocha so we need to stop at Starbucks, ladies."

Neither Amy or myself objected, and after we got our Iced Skinny Mochas, we went to CVS and bought 2 more tests. In the store, LaLa also made an appointment with her doctor.

We drove home and did the tests. Each time Amy read the results- and they were negative.

Amy: "See? I told you. It was a false positive. You should still go to the doctor's office, though- to make sure."

LaLa: "I'm on cloud 9 right now, yall."

We heard someone beep their car horn outside. When we got downstairs, it was Ant. He was dressed in all black- as usual- leaning on a brand new navy blue Cadillac Elmiraj. Amy and I cried for her, as he got down on one knee. LaLa shoved her face into her hands as Ant kneeled at her feet.

Ant: "No, I'm not proposing. Not yet." he said laughing. "But I hope you forgive me. What I said the other night came out wrong. I just needed time to process my thoughts and I apologize for hurting your feelings. If that's my lil man you carrying, I'll take care of him 100%. This my gift to you for not being done with me on the spot. I'm sorry LaLa."

LaLa: "I forgive you." she said smiling. They hugged and kissed as Amy and I hugged each other. "Baby it was a false positive."

Ant: "Well that's okay. We'll try next time.. when we actually ready." he said, slapping her ass.

B: "I'm so proud of yall." I said from the Alpha Delta steps.
LaLa: "What do you say about us taking a test drive?"
Ant: "It's all yours, baby. Here's the keys." he said, dangling them. She grabbed the keys, swiftly.

LaLa: "We'll be back later, yall. Before the game starts. About to go give Ant his good luck charm." she said twerking in the middle of the street. We laughed as he hopped in the passenger seat and we went back in the house.

Finally I realized that I needed to call Nick back. It's Friday- the day of their big game and I didn't want Nick to go on the field without an open mind. I threw on my clothes and called Nick. But he didn't answer.

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